My day full of YUCK

This blog is dedicated to any woman who ever has, ever will or is currently experiencing, "morning sickness." That phrase does not do justice to what most of us experience, b/c it is simply not just in the morning...but for me, it is an all day thing. Readers beware: if you are feeling a little sick, maybe you should skip this blog to avoid running to the toilet.

A few phrases for you: sea sick, food poisoning, stomach flu, car sick....You know where your stomach is queasy, so you run to the bathroom to see if anything will come out. Your mouth starts to sweat, you pull your hair behind your ears to avoid splattering, you kneel down to your porcelain friend, you close your eyes tight...and NOTHING comes out....just a bunch of spit. Most of the time, I just WANT to throw up, but I can't get the nasties out of me.

Just typing this is making me dry heave...I best keep this short. But, I do want to document this for my own future benefit so I can always remember what this feels like!

Another scenario that is very hard for me: Grocery stores. The smells inside of meats, people, frozen goods and snacks is hard to swallow. I run in with my little list, keep my eyes to the floor to avoid eye contact with ANY food item, grab the products, run to the aisle and keep my mouth covered with my hand while I try and BREATHE deep breaths the entire time. Dry heave after dry heave, my stomach just won't settle down. Get me out of there!

Going to church: Now the I have the nose of a blood hound (why is that??? Anyone have a good answer??), I can smell any perfume, after shave, BO, deoderante, BAD BREATH (that is by far the worst, especially when people are singing the hymns), or dirty diapers a few rows back.

Driving: I usually don't mind looking at billboards or restaurants....Now, I keep my eyes shut. I can't handle right now especially the fast food signs (Wendy's and McD's are especially revolting). Thinking of those places, the grease, the dirty public toilets (in case I have to run in there)....sidenote...I just threw up in my hand...ugh...I better stop writing this NOW...

One last thoughts: a typical day for me these last several weeks...and for sure more to come. If I don't shove something in my mouth by 6am (usually a cracker with water), the aches and pains come. I HAVE to constantly put food in my stomach every hour or so or the intense stab of pain comes back....I call it, "Feed the fetus" time. (I know it's just an embryo, but it ryhmes so well!). I am okay throughout the early morning, but by mid day...I am not doing well. All food has lost desirability...which is annoying b/c I am NOT craving anything...so everything is gross. I try to be creative with my choices, but it leads me nowhere....I won't write the food choices down or else I will have to run to the bathroom again.

I rotate throughout the day, when possible, to eat, lay the belly down, run to the bathroom to TRY and relieve myself, be with the family, work, eat again, etc. By nighttime I am DONE. These last few days b/c Jared is around, after moaning and groaning before dinner even comes (which is always so gross for me whatever it is), I just lay in bed in the dark until I feel better to get up, brush teeth and go back to bed.

Yuck...I sure hope this ends soon b/c I am ready to feel excited to be pregnant! Right now, I am just in no mood to talk about what sex we might be having, the due date, WHY I am wearing maternity clothing already (are you expecting twins or just a big baby?), and if it's normal for me to be this sick....no more!